Watch me as I suffocate
Medication to sooth my aches
numbs my constant fear of change
addiction is a slow decay
restless shakes bruised veins
god will i ever fucking feel safe

I fell in love with my depression
the only thing that was consistent
I hated how empty I felt but at least it kept me distant
Everything i love will slowly dissipate
everyone i know will be ripped away
what's the fucking point it's getting harder to pretend
how do escape the relativity in this?
Nothing is beautiful
Nothing is forever
that thought alone strips me of my efforts

Nothing is beautiful no nothing lasts forever
that thought alone strips me of my efforts
Maybe when i'm older I won't be so scared to die
maybe in time death won't be so fragile in my mind
I fell in love with my depression
the only thing that was consistent
I've hared how empty I've felt but at least it's kept me distant

Spite

Watch me as I suffocate
Medication to sooth my aches
numbs my constant fear of change
addiction is a slow decay
restless shakes bruised veins
god will i ever fucking feel safe

Addiction is a slow decay

Feelings of neglect feelings of regret
How the fuck could I ever forget
I'm addicted to despondency
it bleeds into everything