I break beneath my grief 
I hate the fact that I know my tragedy's my masterpiece 
harbored my aggression till it broke loose 
now a feeling that I can't lose


I watched the razor hit the floor 
blood in the bathroom sink 
nothing felt forced
I saw the lines on her wrists 
and up her arms another victim to self harm 
Like starring at my reflection her face said it all
I knew to keep a steady hand to remain calm 
my attempts never went like this 
now i'm here at the other end 
someone you'd never expect wanting themselves dead


When you tried to kill your demons you hurt yourself instead 
a collection of your failures compiled in a vignette 
When I tried to kill my demons I hurt myself instead 
a collection of my failures compiled in a vignette


Red on white hospitalized for the night 
only hopelessness filled your eyes 
to see you like that killed me inside 


When you tried to kill your demons you hurt yourself instead 
a collection of your failures compiled in a vignette 
When I tried to kill my demons I hurt myself instead 
a collection of my failures compiled in a vignette
Behind the wheel I stilled in shock 
those damages I couldn't mend it's like time stopped


I closed my eyes as anxiety washed away 
it all built up to this then crashed right into me 


What else could I do 
What the fuck else